I’ve always been a “Christmas Person” I own more Christmas
jumpers and earrings than I’m willing to admit too.. I love getting the Boots/
Argos/ Smyth/ Littlewoods Xmas books in September and pouring over it to see
what’s coming in and choosing special presents for people and for me (sure why
not.)
I love driving around to see the lights people put up
outside their houses, with the Christmas tunes on (obvs) Me and my friends even
take photos of our Christmas tree’s as soon as they go up to show each other,
before we go to visit each tree (yes, this is a thing)
I could talk Christmas stuff all day, the toy show, the
children singing, the carols, the songs, the Santy hats, the decorations on
houses and in shopping center, people everywhere and I mean everywhere,
wrapping paper, presents, bows, cribs, baubles, nights out, lotsa booze and
lotsa over eating….
Yip, I think of all of the above when I think of Christmas
but I also think of the food, the Roses/ Celebrations that will be hanging
around the office, the pies, cakes & biscuits that will be on offer in
every house and shop that you visit and this is all in the build up to the big
day.
This is before all the boxes and tins that you’ve been
buying since last Halloween make an appearance and are cracked opened, enough
food to feed you for months, yet we (I) take it upon myself to have an eating
competition and see how I get on (I can assure you, these never end well) but I
never break the cycle, I tell myself that I enjoy it. And to a degree I do, I
enjoy allowing myself a “day off” to “eat whatever I want” but I don’t enjoy
the other aspect of it, the belly ache, the bloated feeling, the guilts.
Because for me these come hand in hand. But once I get a taste of the sugary goodness,
I’m weak and I keep going, I just don’t know when to stop! I’m making myself
out to be a savage and to a certain degree that’s how I behave on these days!!
All this for ONE DAY, but the eating can go on for up to 10
days!
Then I face the scales, say all the prayers possible and
hope that the crazy eating won’t show up in the numbers, but of course it does
and then I feel sorry. But I wasn’t at the time. At the time I was too busy
enjoying stuffing my face.
I’m always very sorry after the face, but hindsight is
20/20.. I swear to myself that it will never happen again….
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| My Christmas Tree |
I do intend to enjoy my Christmas, but I am also going to
plan to be off plan if that makes sense. I am going to keep doing what I’m
doing for now until my weigh in on Christmas eve.
I then plan to loosen the reins a little bit on myself and
have some treats and enjoy them.
It is Christmas after all…
This year I want to break my own cycle, I don’t want to gain
a stone over 2 weeks that will take me 6 months to shift (the story of 2014 for
me)
I’m hoping that being aware of my self destruction button,
it will help me to make wiser choices.
Weight
lost to date: 11lbs
Onwards and Downwards, the Slimming World way :)
Onwards and Downwards, the Slimming World way :)
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