WEEK 16 WEIGH IN 2013

Happy Monday,

I bring good news.. I was down 3lbs this week... wooo hooo
I had a good week, so I was hoping for good news J
I think that 3 spinning classes in the week is really helping me at the moment, I also managed to squeeze in 4 walks. So my exercise was good and I had 6 great days with food too.

I do find that come Thursday and Friday, I’m almost tempted to give in and have some sugar or “something nice” but this is something that I’m becoming more aware of and I think its my own brain trying to make me fail. So I’ve been staying strong when these thoughts hit me! It’s a constant battle with myself. I know it sounds silly and its mad for me to try and explain how this works for me. But any kind of emotion = food for me. Happy = food, sad = food, tired = food, cranky = food, tired from exercise = food, bored = food. Or any reason at all. If my friend says she’s sad, I’m thinking “what kinda cake/choc could I buy to cheer her up” madness I know, but I’ve operated like this for years.. so the re-wiring process in my brain is gonna take a while to catch on as the new automatic response.. So I have to be extra vigilant with myself. Yip I’m self policing my thoughts aswell as my actions.
Its not even that I’m thinking that I’ll have whatever it may be as a treat because I’ve been so good the last few days. Its just purely because A.) its there B.) I want it, just cuz C.) Sure why not
These aren’t even real excuses, but at the time my urges take over and I want to give in, and I can tell you know, its never worth it. I’ve caved many times and its never worth it.

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My other good news for this post is I've finally beaten my own personal mental block.  That's right, I am now the lightest  I have ever been in my adult life.. its taken me a while but I've beaten my own demons and now the only way is down form here. I was thrilled to receive this piece of news on Saturday morning as I’ve been so so close to this moment since mid March and I kept bouncing back and fourth from it. But I’ve done it now, I’ve finally broken through my mental block wall J
I’m sure I’ll face many more challenges and blocks and plateau’s as I continue on my weight loss challenge, but this is my first BIG BREAKTHROUGH and I feel like I want to shout it from the rooftops.. I didn’t give up on myself, yes it took me a while to get my head around it and get on the right track. BUT I DID IT, Nobody else but me.

Its almost a relief to prove to myself that I could do this. So this is the 4^th time in 12 months that I’ve lost the same stone. But this week my total weight loss tally for this year is 15lbs, which means I’ve lost 1 stone and 1 lbs and that little 1lb means that I’m now into my second stone… so there’s no going back. The only way is forward.

I know I’m gushing, but this feels like it’s a very big deal for me J so as my treat I bought myself some new gym clothes in the Nike Outlet shop. 2 pants (1 x long & 1 x short) and a pink vest to break my black cycle for the summer.


15lbs lost, 45lbs to go.... 

Week 12 Weigh-in 2013‏

Hey Guys,

Hope your relaxing on this bank holiday Monday :)
I got weighed on Friday this week, so a day early because of the bank holiday weekend.

I was up 1.5 on the scales and up 1 in muscle!! its my first time being up on the scales since I started back in January and I'm a little bit gutted to be honest :(
These things happen I guess and I can blame getting weighed a day early and at 4pm rather than 11am!
But I was up, I had a good week I had thought.
I'd had 3 x 20 minute lunch time walks and 2 x Spin & Ab classes, so I was feeling good about stepping on the scales.
I was being extra good because I was fearful of the long weekend (see my post from Friday here)

So I stepped on the scales hoping that I'd be reporting back a good result!
My food diary was checked and they flagged some of my dinner choices as being the reason for not being down my target of 3 (or not being down at all) I had eaten a pork chop, noodles with my chicken stir-fry and I'd had mince in stew! I would not have seen any of these as being super bad! especially as these were my dinner choices. I have to eat.

I was very upset about this on Friday afternoon, but I guess it was bound to happen at some stage and it means that I'll have to up my game and try to be even more careful next week!!

Today's the first of April. And I am so far failing in my efforts to be down 8lbs per month!!

As of today I'm down 11.5lbs, I should be down 24lbs!! Not good, I'm way off target.

But I don't have time to feel sorry for myself, bottom line is I have to try harder, not anybody else. ME ME ME.
So I've rang the gym and signed in for a 7pm spin tonight to kick start my week.
I WILL DO BETTER THIS WEEK!!

11.5lbs  lost, 49.5lbs to go.... 

Week 11 Weigh-in 2013‏

Its that time of the week again!! this week flew for me!! I spent most of the week trying to recover from the long weekend!!

On the Saturday night I went for a 3 course meal with the boy, it was lush I must say and we enjoyed it, we then went to the cinema and I HAD to have something!! So I had a small packet of peanuts!!

On Sunday, it was St. Patricks Day, my day started with a lovely fry up to “line the stomach” before my day out to break the booze ban, we drank and danced and had a great day, so at 2am it was a great idea to have pizza and chips!! I usually just have a bottle of water as eating on top of booze makes me very sick!!

So on Monday I was a wreck! All resolve, good intentions and will power had left the building! I had a toastie for my breakfast, 2 giant Munchies cookies for my lunch with some coke and then had a lovely Roast in the evening for dinner, followed by apple tart and cream.

I was on a self destruction mission and it worked!!

I had 3 bad days over the weekend and then spent the 4 days of my working week trying to make up for being bold!! This is an old habit of mine creeping back in, and although I’m aware of it, I'm finding it very difficult at the moment to fight the urge!!


On Tuesday morning I was still shattered (aren’t two day hangovers awful) I was back to work and therefore back to some sense of a routine! I drank water and herbal tea all day to try and get rid of the yukky bloated and heavy upset belly I was sporting. I felt like I had gained 5 stone over the long weekend. And it was all down to my own self destruction mode!!
I got a few compliments on Sunday while out about how good I was starting to look, and I let it go to my head “I do look good and I am working hard, so I’ll eat this, this and this” You would think that I’d be learning at this stage of my life, but I’m only too happy to fall back into my own little trap, so that when I fail its my own fault!
BUT because I’ve decided this time to make my journey public, I won’t fail! I’m starting to recognise my triggers and I keep getting back up, even when I do fall down!!

So on Tuesday night I attended what I thought was a 50 minute spin class to try and ease my conscience aswell as my bloated belly!!! The class turned out to be half spin and half abs. it was honestly the longest hour of my life!! The emotions I went through in that long long hour!! I started determined, then I got tired, then my hair fell down. Then my nose started to leak, then my foot almost came loose in the pedal, then I was tired and fit to cry, How sorry I was feeling for myself was no ones business!! Yip I was pathetic! BUT I didn’t stop or walk out! I told myself that I deserved to feel this bad and worse because of what I CHOOSE to eat the three days previous, and this was my punishment!! The abs part of the class was extra tough! By the end of that class even breathing was an effort and every part of me ached!!  But I walked out after that hour feeling like I was taking back control of my body. I had the longest hottest shower afterwards and happily crawled to bed, and slept like a log!!

On Thursday, I was still sore from Tuesday night and was signed up for my regular Spin & Abs class. On my way in I met the instructor and she complimented my weight loss and said I was looking well and asked lotsa questions. I was beaming from the praise from essentially a stranger and this got me through this tough class, where I managed my first side plank from the ankles J its defo the small things!!I don’t know why praise from a stranger boosts me so much more than praise from my family, I guess its because a stranger doesn’t have to comment, so its lovely when they do J and it means a lot to me!

And so I was very anxious about the scales on Saturday morning! Would my 4 good days undo the damage of my 3 really bad days???

It was a funny weigh in, but I’ll share it with you. I was down 1 on the scales, down 2lbs in fat and up 2.5lbs in muscle.

My advisor decided not to “give me the 1 pound loss” even tho I was down, but she said that all the exercise on top of the alcohol had thrown my reading off!!

But I decided that I NEED to give myself the 1 pound and a little pat on the back, I know I should have been down more., but I’m not perfect and these things will happen from time to time!!

I’ve been very lucky this week, I probably should have been up!! And I would have deserved it too!!

I’ve been given the target of 3 lbs for next week, (she said she’ll call it 3 if I loose 2  in the next 7 days!!??)

So I’m going to work hard before the next long weekend as I really really want to have an Easter Egg!!

I hope you had a better week and weigh in than me!!

13lbs  lost, 47lbs to go....